Grow

I am having that soft feeling where it is time to choose to grow, but it's not a hassle anymore. It's no longer a begrudgingly moving on that I secretly wish I could avoid.

I am leaning into it and embracing it, which is new and empowering.

I am almost scared of the feeling. A little melancholy to leave old parts of me behind. Angry that I have chosen to be happy for people who hurt me in one way or another.

Grieving the adolescence I lost one heartbreak at a time, but celebrating and welcoming the new chapter. I had a really rough start but the past is the past and I am ready to be in the present.

Life is a gift, after all.

It's the end of a chapter I didn't know would end, and especially not like that. But it is a good lesson for the unpredictability of life and to not take anything for granted.

The longer I walk in this direction, the happier I feel. I didn't know that what I needed could feel better than what I wanted.

I am no longer sad for the things that didn't work out, because look what DID!